|
[Dec. 31st, 2008|10:04 pm] |
Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.
Two thousand and eight has really been FANTASMIC. So many things have happened, in a whirl probably but I'm thankful for everything that I've gone through, because I've grown so much more learnt so much more! Haha probably 2007 was so shittily spent 2008 seems alot more fruitful in so many other ways (: I think 08 was the year I became clearer about what I wanted, and I really worked towards goals that had been previously set, esp for academics haha. 08 was also the year that I realised who/ what was worth it and who/ what wasnt, and who I should thank for whatever happened. All I can say is that I am/ have been alot of cheerful in 08, and thank you for making me realise that there are so many other things to be happy about this year. Meeting certain people this year/ end of last year has changed me alot, (of course not forgetting my ollddddd frienddddssss :D ) positively in fact and my happiness is more than just !!!! And of course not forgetting nysc people, class people, cca people, old class people hahahha and random school people! (haha people in school make up so much of my life mmanzxz) So overalll, my happiness graph has changed tremendously in 08 and on the last day of 2008, i just want to say a BIG THANK YOU to everyone who contributed to the change in my happiness graph (:
Hmm so really, being Sec 4 hasnt been all that scary. And like what I already said, Year 4 was in fact an awesome year. Although I had many fears, one of which was not passing Sec 4 hahahahahhahahahaha, I decided that it wass very much uncalled for. Anyway even though I felt that there was a lack of events to really have fun, I did enjoy the last few events we had in nanyang, of which events like Graces will remain in my fond memories (: Basically I think if someone ever asks me, I think Year 4 was a fabulous conclusion for my 4 years in Nanyang and I'll really miss it. Only been back once this entire hol and even before JC starts I kinda miss ny already. But yeah, I must say all 4 years combined have been good, even though there were horrible times with different sorts of people, but well! (:
So to just conclude some really huge parts of my Nanyang school life,
NYSC ♥ Although the way I decided I was going to join NYSC was really random and horrible, but I must say I have NEVER regretted it Haha I dont know how to react to people's face when they frown this " Are you crazy, why did you ever join nysc, it's alot of saigang, aiyoh i pity you" look at me but only when you've been through this will you ever understand hahaha. It's been so good, I'm not saying that there were no downs, of course there were. But the UPS made it haha so very much awesome when I get sentimental I think about the UPS and all the wonderful people there. 2 years of NYSC has taught me that you fight for what you want and what you believe in. Because no one is going to willingly offer you their piece of understanding simply because they can never really understand, and what they can offer is temporary sympathy and support. So fighting to prove that NYSC is trying, and doing our best has taught me that you need to do something to prove that NYSC has it and not be defensive altogether. To be honest it hurts when NYSC is critiscised because of a wrong understanding, haha it is such a big part of me, there's this huge piece of pride involved. But then again I 've learned to face this, take it positively and move on. Sometimes when I hear critiscisms from people closest to me, secretly I feel so much (fill this in yourself) but now thinking back I'm glad I heard all those comments hard and raw. Well there's one thing I'll always miss about NYSC, Investitures. Haha it's just something that feels special to me, and yes haha I do feel good about the two previous invests, and I'll miss them anyhow! Somethings I've learnt about myself: 1) I'm not as hard as i always think myself out to be. Being comm head I think I've seen more of people than I ever wanted to see haha, but it's good, it's good. Haha I realised it's not easy for me to open my mouth and tell them off when I think they're not giving their best like how in my mind I'm already ticking them off, but it's good knowing that I need to be harsher than I am now hahaha. 2) There's this certain inferiority complex that is complicated to explain haha. For as long as I've known myself I dont think I've been exactly confident of who I am hahaha. I think it's pretty obvious! D: But well I'm really thankful for various people who have pointed this out to me, and at the same time been very encouraging throughout the whole Council journey. (: It's just good to know that I have you guys! (: 3) Oh eight- I've never been more thankful for the fact that 08 existed hahaha, idk if people find me crazy about how much I love 08. To me, (TO ME!), 08 has been morally supportive, been always there for one another and it's been really amazing if you ever ask me. We've probably known each other for a bout 2 years only, but for most of us we've come to love one another, work together as one and through experience haha I think every one can agree that it's not easy at all! Haha but even though things can get complicating sometimes, I think I can safely say that at least in terms of work we all respect everyone here, at least me :D Deep down inside there are people who I deeply respect and admire, haha even though I dont say it out at all. I guess my whole purpose of saying this is that 08 together has been wonderful, 28 of us tgt has really been more than I asked for. You probably dont know how thankful I am for many things and experiences that have continuously bonded us tgt. Haha I really do look forward to the 2 more camps we have left to plan for NYSC and haha yes, I really treasure the so many things else we've shared/ will share in the coming future (:
NYGG. (: And haha I'm sorry that I couldnt been more passionate for my own CCA, but after 4 years it would be utterly unfair if I said I learnt nothing. In fact I've learnt much too, hmm. And one biggest lesson I've learnt? Haha that if I ever make a wrong decision, it would be stupid if i hated it more because it'd only make my own life harder. So making the best out of wrong decisions will be the best I guess after, a whole 4 years haha. It's sad that I only realised that after 2 whole years, but nothing's ever too late I guess, I'm glad I still did justice to myself and people who've really worked hard for this CCA. Haha well I hate to admit this, but I never really understood why I joined NYGG, all the same. Haha I'm just bad at decisions haha. But well, all the same I'm thankful. I've learnt things that NYSC can never teach me, and most importantly I've met fabulous people, great friends (the BBs hahahah). There's been so much memories too, good and bad, and I'm glad that I was part of NYGG all the same. And I really must say this. Thank you for batchmates who've been there always, and thank you even more for those who've worked so hard for this CCA just to make sure everything goes right. You guys are awesome and I love you too. ♥
207'06/ 413'08 ♥ Haha twoseven sounds ancient! But hahah I must still say that it's been wonderful knowing that I came from that class, haha otherwise I wouldnt even have met so many wonderful people that I still keep contact with and are still really close to (the 412 gang of toots and the one in 401 who is really faraway hahahhaha). It's the class where I met people of diverse personalities, and even though we took a really long time to become ONE class, i'm still glad we did eventually! I really miss you guys, everyone together hahaha it wouldnt be the same missing someone I realised. And even though it's almost two years since I actually graduated from the class, just wanted to say thank you for everything wonderful (: And fourthirteen has been truly a total different experience. Haha everyone's REALLY different, but I had my share of joy as well in this class, like power (: There are things like funny class jokes that I'll never forget, famous people hahahahah that have made class time so much more interesting, and even though we have been infamous in many ways, it's not like we can be infamous everyday. :D I'll always remember our haunted houses!! I love you guys for being so wonderfully creative, and thank you too for my last two years in nanyang. (:
And I was just flipping through photos, old letters and I realised haha there's just too many old memories to talk about, no matter how wonderful and impactful they've been. Just am really happy, glad, that I was ever part of those experiences and memories, and actually, jsut am glad that I was ever part of Nanyang! Haha okay fine I know during the last year of school term people around me had to endure endless rants of how life sucks, HAHA but YES I HOPED YOU KNOW I WASNT SERIOUS. Haha it was the epitome of stresssness but do realise that I love life okay!! Hahah well of course if there's any regret, it's just one of them. Realised that I said no to many things, many opportunities because I was scared of how things would end, but I decided that 09 will not be this way anymore. Haha am going to give myself more chances to try and challenge myself, so that there will be no room for regrets.
So, 2008 has been great, am thankful for so many of the above, and I just hope 2009 will be even better for everyone of us! Optimism, optimism ♥ |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
tearsinheaveann's journal
